Let me tell you a little more about my story and my journey. I am the youngest of 4 kids and only girl. Growing up I was a princess andddd spoiled, for lack of a better word. I used to be a beautiful, sassy, spitfire and at some point over the years I lost that. After being told my personality is too big too many times (by some of those I'm closest with), I dimmed my light. I suppressed my natural nature to make others more at ease. I lost myself. I spent my 20s trying to be nice and accommodating, and boy was I! But where did it get me? I was unsatisfied and lacked passion. I hadn't only lost myself but I was lost in this big ol' world.
Even though I was unsatisfied I was always yearning for more. I was definitely stuck but I knew I was capable of more. I started reading personal development books. Some of the first books I read were The Slight Edge by Jeff Olson and Think and Grow Rich by Napoleon Hill. Both of these are classics and totally changed the way I saw the world and began my journey into being a better version of myself. I could feel my mindset starting to shift but was I really ready to change? Could I find success? Am I enough? These are just a few of the limiting beliefs I struggled with. There were MANY! I constantly told myself I'm not smart enough, talented enough, or creative enough. Can you relate? The good news is I was able to change these things and so can you! Before you go after what you want you have to start with your mindset - with these negative beliefs.
Because I wanted more, I stayed consistent with personal development. I focused on the person I wanted to become rather than the person I was at the time. That helped me show up for myself even when I didn't want to. Even when I didn't feel like it. It's kind of like working out. For me, working out not only makes me look better but it makes me FEEL better. When I want to skip a workout because I'm tired or unmotivated, rather than trying to get excited about the actual workout, I focus on how amazing I'm going to feel when I'm done. Focus on the after effect to push you through the challenging thing.
I started a practice of gratitude and meditation every morning which helped me to slow down, center myself, and focus on the positive. My mindset was changing and I was starting to enjoy the person I was becoming. But again, I still struggled with the limiting beliefs I had been telling myself my entire life. I was introduced to Rachel Hollis and, with a month to spare, I decided to go to her RISE personal development conference. One thing to know about me... I do not like to spend money. It can be a good thing and a bad thing but... I am pretty cheap. The tickets were expensive but I knew I needed to go. I knew it in my gut that this was the push I needed.
So I went. I showed up and fully committed to the weekend. Somehow, by the end of the weekend, I realized that I am enough. That I was created intentionally, flaws and all. And most importantly that my voice matters. I have always been an encourager but I was too fearful to create a bigger platform to encourage people. So here I am. That's exactly why I created Show Up to Go Up.
I know that there are so many people and women that struggle with the same doubts and insecurities that I did. Part of my story moving forward is that I help other people overcome the same struggles and doubts that I went through. Although it's an ongoing journey and there are ups and downs, I truly feel like I'm on the other side of fear. I'm doing it. And I know that you can do it too! Trust me, there is nothing that you've thought about yourself that I haven't thought about myself. If I can do it, so can you.
I am here to give you tools and inspiration to help you show up for yourself to live your best life. I can't do the work for you but if you commit to showing up for yourself regularly (regardless of where you are) there is nowhere that you can go but up! Whatever it is you want in life, it's time to go after it! Today is the first day of the rest of your life. I believe in you and I'm so excited for you.
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